True love is rare, and it's the only thing tht gives life real meaning - 'Message in a bottle'

I kept saying 'Message in THE bottle' when it should have been 'Message in A bottle'. Before I knew it (but should have realised it), Garrett died.
It made me teared. There are a few things that must be in Sparks' novels. - Letters, unexpected churn of romance, a once in a life time kinda love and death.
Ok...maybe in 'The Notebook', neither Allie nor Noah died but it is almost death but very likely, a kinda fate that could be worse than death sometimes.

Sigh.

Anyway, the new either Lee Hwa or Sookee or whatever new advert made me crave for some french songs. I have one French songs album and started to look for it earlier on.
Oddly I didn't find it at where I should have, or maybe haven't try harder.

Anyhow I found another burned CD which took me by surprise. I totally forgot about it.
It was written (by me)

"12th July 04. Happy Birthday. Love, Jason ;p"

I couldn't recalled what it is either so I put the CD to play.
It was a burned CD of 16 songs and the first song is the acoustic version of Jason Mraz 'You and I Both'.

It stirred a funny feeling within me as I listened. I felt that I have to call Jason and I did. I told him what happened and I asked if he could remember giving me this CD.
He told me he remembered and explained that CD was supposed to be a decoy. Was it?

There have been times when I test Jason what was the first birthday gift I gave, the first Xmas gift, the first month-niverssary gift, the second so on and so fore. Some I could remember, some I totally can't. And I can't recall alot of presents he gave, even as of recent months/years. Alot jumpled up in sequence.

I guess deep inside, I felt sweet. Apart from that, I felt changes.

I realised how much that I have changed. Physically yes. Emotionally...kinda. Mentally yes.
Jason changed too but his love for me hasn't change.
It is not totally fair to say my love for Jason change. My love...Faith for love...didn't change.
I still love a part of my memories and my tangles with that. Love for Jason is something different, something that could be smoothing and safe, something that would last me all my life when nothing comes to challenge it.

Over these years, I still find it is the first song that I heard from Jason Mraz, the first song he sang on stage (for me?), the first song that kinda made it as our song remains my favourite.

and it's okay if you have go away
just remember the telephone works both ways
and if I never ever hear it ring
if nothing else I'll think the bells inside
have finally found you someone else and that's okay
cause I'll remember everything you sang

you and I both loved.....

- Jason Mraz